I am in a dark place. What started as a mixed episode (up and down), now went black.
It is difficult to relate to God, my community, my friends - even colleagues. I am finding more and more reasons to avoid just about every important person in my life. If I am tired of my dark mood, how must they feel?
I am about to give up on myself. I am tired of fighting a fight I cannot win. I battle to see any sense or purpose. Just tired. And dark.
2 comments:
Hi,
I don't know you but I've been reading you for a while.
You're not the only person to flee from those who are close to you during a time of depression. Listen to Elijah’s story from 1 Kings 19:3 - 4, “And when he saw that, he arose, and went for his life, and came to Beersheba, which belongeth to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers.”
The rest of that passage contains some sound advice regarding how to deal with those symptoms.
Seek out someone who knows God’s Word and God’s Way and unload on them and get council regarding where you are, where you should be and how to get there.
The good news is this will pass. You can look forward to being stronger on the other side.
In Christ,
Mark
Thanks, Mark.
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