... is notorious for the number of suicides committed. On a night like tonight, I can understand it and it scares me.
It is advent and we are counting down the days until we celebrate Jesus' birth to this world. I know He came to bring light to the darkness, He came to set the captives free, make the blind see & the lame walk... to declare the acceptable year of the Lord.
And yet, all I see tonight is darkness. I am not talking about the 'christmas spirit'. I feel like I am caught up in an invisible, very dark, spiderweb. The more I try to get out, the more entangled I become.
I am tired. Just too tired to reach out. Tonight, I do not see the light / Light. Yet, there is a spark of hope that this depression will pass (eventually).
God has been faithful and takes care of the big things like keeping the planets in orbit. Why can't I scrape the faith together to believe that He is with me and He cares?
May God have mercy on you and on me tonight.
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